http://codenine.wordpress.com Just another WordPress.com weblog Fri, 30 Oct 2009 19:35:19 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.com/ http://s2.wp.com/i/buttonw-com.png http://codenine.wordpress.com http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/30/the-quarter-life-crisis/ http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/30/the-quarter-life-crisis/#comments Fri, 30 Oct 2009 19:32:46 +0000 codenine http://codenine.wordpress.com/?p=6 ]]> For the want of a better term.. this is what I call it. everything seems to be going on track with what is a seemlingly ‘normal’ life … but something is definitely missing. Whether its purpose, excitement, the risk element. I am not sure. All I know is that I dont feel complete. Everything keeps tugging at my heart .. my soul aksing for more. I look at my partner of almost 3 years and realise that somewhere he is content with life. Maybe therefore are days of frustration but overall he is a satisfied person. I am not a easy person to satisfy. I never realised this till very recently. Everything around me is just passing by and I cant really feel any of it. Or more so even if I feel it .. its not enough. BUT WHAT IS NOT ENOUGH …. ??? I dont know. I work as an HR professional in a large MNC. My job is .. well .. not bad. I am doing reasonably well at it… but does it satisfy me …. NO. Today I spent the last 2 hours in looking for the profile of an ex. dont ask me why ? may be it was sheer boredom. May be it was the need to reconnect with a time when I felt more alive, more content and real. Whatever be the cause… I am not very proud of this .. I was infact in two minds of whether I shoudl initiate contact with him… Decide against it and I think it was a wise choice. Sometimes bygones should be left as bygoines. I lead an extremely surreal .. superficial existence.. Have lost contact with all my college friends. Have decided to reestablish contact with atleast the few who seemed to matter then. In my new scheme of things, nobody seems to matter. I really wish I could write more profound and interesting stuff. But this is as was promised in the first entry …. Ramblings of an unstable mind…

]]> http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/30/the-quarter-life-crisis/feed/ 0 codenine http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/28/getting-started-first-day-in-the-blog-world/ http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/28/getting-started-first-day-in-the-blog-world/#comments Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:33:25 +0000 codenine http://codenine.wordpress.com/2009/10/28/getting-started-first-day-in-the-blog-world/ ]]> So I finally managed to get a blog for miself … to start off let me be honest.. i am not a blogger .. i am not one of those ppl who reads or appreciates blogs … I am a total techie night mare … BUT for some odd reason I decided to start blogging today… My best friend of 10 years has started blogging recently. i have been reading her blogs n really appreciating blog as a concept. I hate writing .. really do. Have this major complex .. hv had it for a really long time now – I strongly believe that I cant write. more importantly, I cant write anything interesting coz i have no original interesting thoughts .. anyways i can keep rambling on about this … the point being – I really liked the idea of saying whats on my mind and then letting it float through the cyber space … the beauty is that may be no one will ever find it .. I will keep writing my most intimate and personal thoughts on a public domain and nobody will ever find it. OR may be some loser like me will someday decide to blogging for whatever his / her reasons might be and they will stumble upon this piece of non sensical rambling on an unstable mind…

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